The First Step is ALWAYS the hardest....

So, the first step is ALWAYS the hardest. I can attest to that. My low self esteem and lack of confidence holds me back from so much. I suppose the only way to change that is by me accepting the change and making the effort to change. I hate change. I would love for everything to stay the same, even though the same is often a nightmare in itself. I get into a comfort zone and like it there. When something happens to that comfort zone, it makes me crazy. Right now I have so much going on in my life that I am just overwhelmed and cannot find myself under all the clutter.
I am planning on moving. This will only be my fifth move in 2 1/2 years! I am restless and can't seem to settle. Explaining it all is going to take some time and as I move along this new path, I only hope by blogging it will get it all out.
Right now I am in pain. On the pain scale....let's just say 10 isn't justified! I was up all night last night which only intensifies the pain I am feeling. I couldn't sleep because of all the stress, the pain, and most of all the thunderstorms.
I can't seem to focus, but did trim all the bushes and roses, clipped the dogs nails and gave them baths, and have started tonight's dinner. I have called and made an appointment with a pain management specialist for tomorrow. It is a tad early for some of the other phone calls and appointments I need to make.
Ok, enough for now.
Ta Ta